I am in awe of God today. Just when I began to feel the size of the things that I have been boldly asking God for in my life.
I began to believe that these things are too big or too trivial for God. Many of the things I am praying for are based on human emotion or have so many stipulations and factors that my finite brain can't see how they could all work out in the right order. But what I forget is that God is in control of EVERYTHING. He is the one whispering into the soul of every person that knows him and causing things to happen. And even when we are not listening, He finds a way to execute His will. His will is not dependent on me or you or how we feel. His will is perfect and unstoppable.
I can't help but think about a metaphor that I heard at a conference a few years ago. The speaker related the will of God to a GPS system. It is leading us to where we need to go, but if we miss the road or make a wrong turn it doesn't just shut down and say "Well you missed that turn so now I guess you're just going to be lost. Good luck out here in this unfamiliar place on your own." Instead, it say "Recalculating." It may not take you the best route after you mess up, but it will still get you there, and might even show you some things that you never would have imagined could be possible before.
I am so thankful for a God that does not give up on screw ups like me! He continues to love me, even when I make a mess of my life trying to do it on my own and come crawling back to him with the pieces asking Him to put them back together. It makes me think of my niece and nephew doing a puzzle. Neither of them are very good at puzzles, but they want to do it on their own without any help from me. But when the pieces aren't fitting together easily, they ask for help and I can show them where each piece goes and tricks on how to find the right place easier.